Hey~

I haven't been on in a while. Been pretty crazy around here. With school, and drama at home, and just a lot of probelms. Had a lot of homework and I got d-hall the third week of school for hitting a guy that hit a girl. Pshh. I shouldn't have gotten in trouble. That was so stupid. I was just mad because the girl was my bestfriend and the guy had been bugging her for two whole days and she was getting really mad. So I got really mad. I just feel for everyone else. I hate when people go through things and are hurt or sad or upset. I have been like that most of my life and I would not wish that on my worst enemy. Well, other then that a problems at home, everything has been pretty mellow. Thank goodness. I am so tired of the rape drama already. It's been four years and I just want it done and over with. It's not fair that I am still going through after four years. I would like him to just go to jail and stay there. I don't want him around me ever. Or whem I grow up I don't want him knowing my kids and hurting them the same way he hurt me, and made me damaged goods. I am almost scared of being touched. I've pretty much gotten over it on the outside. Everyone can see me "happy" but when I got home to my room, I am crying and screaming into my pillow.

Walking through the halls

With tears falling down my face

Trying not to fall

And keep up with the pace

Never felt more alone in my life

I would love to have a knife

Trying to hide

Just like my scars

Let me run far!!

 

 

 

-Jenny

It Won't Sell.

I cannot tell

Only I am to know

It won't sell

Because you will not know

I'm sorry if you don't think it's right

It's something I have to do

I guess we will fight

I have to.

 

 

 

-Jenny

DAD/ Russ.
Well, let's see. He is a smartass. But he is so smart. And I love to argue with him or just talk to him. He has a prettty high IQ so it's fun to pick his mind. I can talk about anything and he will give his honest opinion of the thing I am talking about. And if I need help on my homework he can hep with anything, and he likes to play video games and I do to. He introduce minecraft to me. It is awesome. He is a awesome dude and I am sure you are going to be hearing of him a lot.

MOM/ Tab.
Well, let's start off by saying she has really made my life better. I feel happier and excited more. I have more to distract me so I don't get sad or depressed. It's so much better. I love her. She brought two adorable little girls into this world that I am so thankful for. They make my life better just as much. She is funny, and so happy. I would do anything for her. She is beautiful. I am so lucky to have her. She would do anything for me. Thursday I get to have a cry night at her house. I need that right now. I'm not sure what else to say but you will be hearing about her a lot.